Hello magic-fam
This situation I find myself in is quite sticky, any thoughts?:
For the longest time I have been a night owl, only getting tired & falling asleep between 1am & 3am. At night between 10pm and 3am I felt better in my body, lighter, clearer mind, better mood, sharper intuition and I very often received many insights that felt like downloads. My eagerness for knowledge was heightened and I had greater ease with research & deeper understanding of the universes energies.
I woke in the mornings between 9am & 10am. Often I felt sad/depressed during the day, craved the most unhealthy foods, felt weak willed, unmotivated, uninspired and just in limbo until the next night where I felt better and more connected again.
However, over the last few months, I've made many changes in favour of my health, goals and journey of magic. Eating healthily, exercising, meditations, studies, strengthening my will over my fears, and resetting my sleeping pattern.
The sleeping pattern took a few days but now I make sure I'm in bed by 10pm, even though I'm not tired, but I'm lucky to fall asleep pretty soon after my decision to do so. I naturally awake between 6am and 7am. This has resulted in me feeling more rested, my mood during the day has improved, I feel more motivated and strong willed.
However, now I have realised that, I am missing out on the late night insights and downloads that used to happen with such ease. Even though I'm feeling better during the day, I find myself exerting more energy to do research and absorb information. My desire for understanding and knowledge is weaker during the day and it feels heavier, like its dragging.
To test this, I've tried to study during the day and once the sun has set, to avoid messing up my sleeping pattern, and I noticed that indeed, I learn with greater ease, once night has arrived... but still no insights or downloads during early night.
Do I need to give it more time?
Have I shot myself in the foot somehow?
Do you think is possible to create a balance between these two experiences?